The Start

I have been wanting to “give myself a voice” for years now. I haven’t done it for many reasons. I actually started writing a few years back and 2 weeks in, gave up. I gave up because I historically don’t finish things. I want to chase my goals. I want to live my dreams. I want to have a voice because frankly there is nothing stoping me!

AND Thank you Rachel Hollis for writing “Girl Wash your Face”! She yelled at me in a way I needed! If you haven’t read it seriously… GO GET IT!

Figuring out the best way to start is always the easy part for me. Being willing to keep going is my problem to date. When reading, ok ya’ll I did the audio book, Girl Wash your Face Rachel Hollis spoke to that exact thing. She talked about finishing and if we are not able to finish things for ourselves then why in the world would someone else want us to start something great with them?

Man that made so much sense to me and I knew I was that person. I like the new. I like the smell, the look, that crisp feeling we get as we walk into our first day but when day 10 or day 200 hits I have historical not finished. I WANT TO BE DIFFERENT!

How does one be different at finishing something?? Well shit, I think I start something and then finish it OR what if I started something and kept at it… Wouldn’t that be a switch.

Now don’t get me wrong, I have done AMAZING things in my life and lots of it have been because I have seen those things through. My issues come when it’s about me. I have a husband, three kids, friends, and a house and I love all of them (Differently but you get it). My problem is I have put EVERYTHING in front of myself. Not for good reason just because it is what I did.

So today, today I choose to step in a different direction. I am going to leave the mess on the floor next to me and use nap time as a space to take a step closer to a dream I have had for years! I promise to be honest and I promise to keep at it!